rocking madness

2006-03-15T16:51:00.000+08:00

sometimes...
sometimes i asked myself
y did she turn up at my place
my mind is not focused somehow.
some things are better to left the way it was.

2006-02-14T02:14:00.000+08:00

words are cheap as quoted.
amazing how this came from the same person who proves it right.
actions count it all.. isn't it?
but somehow, she proves me wrong.
her words are words of untruth.
sometimes it's hard not to believe when someone sounds really convincing.
it's inevitable how people will fall for it. including myself.
time speaks volume.
and it proves one thing to me..
being too trustworthy aint good.
too softhearted as well.
it kills me more than enough..
i need a break.
a break from these people.

a ride?
i dont need that now..

2006-02-05T15:46:00.000+08:00

been thinking..
it's been a tough ride over the past 2 months.
nothing assuring came out of it.
how consoling it can get sometimes.
empty promises.
words.
actions. ok, maybe a little consoled here.
but it stops there?
nah.. it backtracked...
into little confusion.
help!
y bother with all the actions?
to prove something and not following up after that?
that little hope there.. are so futile.
it makes matter worse doesn't it?
just disappointed.
in the end, has to clear up the mess and tell myself that's life.
you bump here and there.
not hoping anything.
wala! suddenly something nice happens but before you can enjoy it,
it's gone.
u ask yourself y it was there even in the first place..

2006-01-24T21:51:00.000+08:00

problems are indeed self inflicted.
i really wonder y i put myself through this..
do i suck?
i really wonder..

2006-01-22T15:17:00.000+08:00

im getting tired.
i dont know what i should do sometimes.
words are afterall words
it's nice to hear nice stuff.
things that make you smile or feel better after hearing.
are these the truth?
you asked yourself..

2005-12-30T15:51:00.000+08:00

i think i'm the luckiest bitch around because i'm going to HongKong with the prettiest person i know...
yay!!!!!!
i'm going to come back from Hong Kong 10 kg fatter, 2 shades darker, and with 2 hongkie babes on each arm.

2005-11-16T15:42:00.000+08:00

if only i know what i want.
if only i stop being so bo chap.
things might have been better.
i dont know if i should care or if i should bother.
maybe im becoming someone i dont know anymore..
how do i feel?
i cant even answer that myself.

yesterdae i was gone.
dead.
i was too high to even remember anything.

yellow lines

2005-11-14T23:37:00.000+08:00

it's amazing that even at 3 in the morning, there's still a chance of getting fined for parking along the double yellow line.
thank goodness i spotted him fast enough..
if not, im screwed.
kinda ran out of macs.
:
well, been thinking bout what i've heard..
just wondering if im really that bochap sometimes..
maybe i just dont see the importance anymore.
i've tried to bother but it boils down to disappointment once again.

it feels like it's the holis..
im game for diving..
hope i'll really do it this time.

life's really unfair but there's nothing one can do about it sometimes

2005-11-12T23:52:00.000+08:00

sometimes there are things when one just dont like to talk about.
it's just not worth it.
surprisingly, u can be wronged by people.
worst of all, unknowingly.
this sucks but i dont want to bother.
it's pointless.
but it doesn't mean im guilty.

it's really nice today.
met up with some of my pri and sec school frens.
i wonder y it's only the big occasion when u get to see them.
it's weird how we can always continue from where we last stopped.
n not feeling awkward around each other even though we din meet for a very long period of time.
i love the feeling.

UH HUH!

2005-11-10T00:59:00.000+08:00

OMG.. this is total madness.
i think i got to stop the amount of food that is entering my mouth.
it is insane..
supper, supper and more supper.
anyway, i think im falling sick.
this aint too good..
my stomach just feel really weird lately.

today i found out something really interesting.
i know of this person whose mum is in early 30s, mind you, a butch,has a daughter who is in her teens.
isn't it queer or wat..

my mind stops wandering off.
i guess that's good cause i wanna stay focused and follow wat i want.
sometimes it's tough but i guess that's the best solution that i can think of.

FOOD PARADISE

2005-11-04T01:26:00.000+08:00

this is bad..
this is bad!!!
i had so much today.
esp i woke up at like 5???!!
fried rice, pasta, calamari... and lastly went out with the girls to 85.
we had lala, fried oyster, hokkien mee, minced meat and chicken wings.
sheez..
HELP..!
im bloated.

tomorrow will be a good day.
na and jane are goin to work with me!
soo exciting.
this is goin to be fun. =)

fake attack

2005-11-03T17:36:00.000+08:00

sometimes i wonder.
wondered what i've heard.
it just pisses me even more.
but i rather be indifferent or ignore its existence.
how could one even think of that.
even from the start.
actually not even from the start of anything.

zouk was packed.
damn it.
din get to enter in the end.
sorry guys!
still yet to chill with u all till now.
arghhhh..
bummed into the usual people that i used to see at zouk.
nice.
the old crowd is back.
left and went for bak gu teh. =)
SHIOK.

this sucks.
i think im falling sick!
grumbles.

2005-11-02T04:01:00.000+08:00

things will never be the same esp after what i know.
dream on..

2005-10-30T11:05:00.000+08:00

sometimes it's amazing who are there for u at the end of race.
this unexpected someone is there.
there for me.
im shocked but it's really sweet of her.
even though we have alot of quarrels or disagreements in the past.
thanks girl n i really appreciate it. =)
tot about everything..
maybe in the first place i shouldn't have even bother.
but i've learnt n known the other side of her.
i guess that's a good thing.
i know now it's the time that is awkward for the rest.
though i really dont want to put them through this..
it's inevitable i guess.
esp when i dont know how to perceive her as a person..
im sorry dudes..

2005-10-29T09:01:00.000+08:00

though my sis can be mean at times
but when im at my bottomless pit,
she's always there.
such a sweetie =)
i guess only times like this she proves her worth
haha.
hugs.
when i think back,
maybe things shouldn't have progressed.
im tryin not to change my image of the certain someone.

2005-10-28T17:45:00.000+08:00

im missin the person..
-sylvia wat can u do?
i cant salvage the r/s..
-sylvia wat can u do?
i need to change this part of me. being too nice. it aint good..
-sylvia wat can u do?
i can list so much items. but it's not working..
i just need one last chance.
i dont see it coming at all..
at all..

2005-10-28T12:19:00.000+08:00

maybe the feelings wasn't there in the first place..
i was in lala land.
i hate it.
y m i puttin myself through this again..
i want to SCREAM.
in fact i might be the only one feelin this way

is that it?

2005-10-28T04:10:00.000+08:00

everything ended just like that.
i cant even believe it myself.
it's something i din expect to hear it at all.
not now i would say.
something good just happened on sun..
was it real?
or was i in a fantasy land..
it's ironic how this ended and how the answer given was the same as the previous one.
now im beginning to wonder if it's me.
if im the answer to all my questions.

a great day indeed

2005-10-24T21:59:00.000+08:00

yesterdae was good.
had lunch at tapas tree
den sat on a trishaw..
was fun!
except that he was blasting some good old days chinese oldies.
a little weird.
nonethless, it was great.
enjoyed myself.
happy one month. =)

today is a bad day.
mum's a little cranky.
anyway, i think it's time for a switch now..
a new workplace.

2005-10-22T10:51:00.000+08:00

i know im not that wonderful.
i know i make mistakes.
but i guess sometimes i do things without realising the consquences.
im sorry.
and i know sorry aint everything..
action is what it matters.

time flies and a new month is approaching
i need to improve myself.
need to study and balance my time.

just me?

2005-10-11T23:29:00.000+08:00

i think it's me.
gettin all strange and weird.
i wonder why..
or is it not?

2005-10-08T23:40:00.000+08:00

sometimes i wonder if i think too much bout things.
things in general.
things that are goin on in my life.
or simply, everything.
so, let's do the move.
dust it away.

2005-10-05T02:08:00.000+08:00

life's been good.
i really appreciate that.
i guess it finally took a turn.
a turn that makes me a happier person.
im glad.
i shouldn't be asking for more than i have at present.
lights out.

school's a torture.
im trying to keep myself awake.
if only the lecturers can keep me awake.
that would be nice.
opposite acts.

2005-09-18T15:42:00.000+08:00

lately, i've been easily irritable.
i dont like it.
usually i dont like to show it but somehow,
there's a change.
it's not that i should keep it inside me.
just that...
i dont like the new change in me.
i guess things dont always go your way even if
you may not be the cause of it.
on fri nite,
it seems like i contradicted myself.
i dont know why i did it.
so myabe afterall, i deserve whatever it happens now.
in fact i know i shouldn't bother esp when everythin's over,
afterall it's my life.
guess i cant cause i've disappointed myself as well.
words are afterall words.
i dont see the other side of me.

is that what it is?

2005-09-14T17:11:00.000+08:00

sometimes i dont like the feeling when im reminded that it's a 1 player's game.
or that it's a game unknowingly all along..
should i walk away for good?
i'm totally fine when im in front of the person.
i see the person as a good fren.
i just dont want to change my impression of that someone.
but when things are put in front of the table,
it's altogether a different matter.
not that im still affected but the flash back of wat took place after makes me wonder whether everything happened was true.
or was it just an illusion.

thump thump

2005-09-14T16:17:00.000+08:00

is it true that when one can get over a person fast, means that one does not really like the person?
it shows that one is not really affected by it?
by what happened?
i ponder hard on this.
maybe some has the ability to get over faster than the rest.
i like that too.
i realised as one grows older,
it's easier to let go of things and accept new things in life.
everything takes time.
but it's really up to oneself.
wonder if it's a good thing.
let's have a break from this cycle of mine.

2005-09-12T12:59:00.000+08:00

life is indeed unpredictable.
happiness may seem to be in your path but dont be surprise if it takes a turn suddenly....
and starts to go downhill.
in a way, it teaches me.
it made me recover fast.
faster than i've expected.
but somehow, that's not the outcome that i wanted.

watched be with me with the homies
well.. sad show but it was too draggy.
couldn't take it until i fell asleep!
oops. haha.

2005-09-09T15:39:00.000+08:00

if only..

let's move together

2005-08-30T23:31:00.000+08:00

went out with clare.
it's been long.
loads of stuff to talk about.
to think about.
though it was only for a short while.
but was good.
more please.

im going to start work at this new place.
it's at siglap.
so u guys can chill there if u want.
seems like a really nice place. =)

somehow tomorrow zouk will be packed.
loads of people gonna be there.
i wonder if it would be fun.

messy.

2005-08-25T01:28:00.000+08:00

finally i pass my driving.
but somehow it seems like there is alot of restriction..
hhmmmph.
this aint good.
i think time is the issue here.
should drive them around more.
maybe then, i can use it freely.
sometimes it aint that as well?
my sis..
she seems weird lately.

i think i cant wash clothes for nuts.
my back is aching.
it just reminds me of the last time i strained my back.
OLIO.
while taking the plates squatting down.

school's fine.
i think i should be the new loner of the block.

i hope i lose weight soon.
it's taking too long.
maybe it's the amount of food im indulging.

the first take.

2005-08-10T14:01:00.000+08:00

sometimes, the same thing can seem so wonderful
but yet at times, it's not.
maybe it's cause of myself.
doing things that is rather unnecessary.
i dont know what im doing.
i've realised that.
words are words.
action is what it takes.
take 1.
take 2.
a repetition of the same thing.
just a different note.
is there a wayout somewhere?

i see one.

sober? not sober?

2005-07-30T15:54:00.000+08:00

i'm drinking too much.
this month is very bad..
calculated the amount spent and i could easily get a mini ipod.
i need to cut down.
my mood shouldn't be the cause of the drinking.
i like happy high but not unhapppy high.
do i make any sense here.
last nite was terrible.
i need to get myself on track again.
i dont know how it feels anymore.
let's all do the pretence that we are capable of.
thank you.

bang bang.

2005-07-28T15:53:00.000+08:00

silly me.

i've lost the feeling of knowing what's on my mind.
the interest of heart as well.

it's good to keep everything with you.
maybe im not good enough a person.

happiness is indeed shortlived.
i've been robbed of it.

silly me.

2005-07-21T17:15:00.000+08:00

life's been good to me lately.
that's neat.
im glad that the things of the past,
remains in the past.
it no longer affects me.
i wonder how the change was possible.
was it something that happened.
something that i couldn't pinpoint.
i always thought it's impossible.
somehow, i can gladly say
move it, let's move it.

however, i can't help but to backtrack sometimes.
i wonder if it's the best option.
it will affect everything that has always been there.

2005-07-16T14:41:00.000+08:00

some times there are things that make us wonder.
whereas at times, we simply ignore it.
there is always this grey line,
that makes us subconciously remember.
is there really the way of handling it?
or rather, isn't it more like handling the way you want it to be.
no right.
no wrong.
no explanation needed
no judging.
bingo!

no wonder they always say,
dont always think you know the answer.
overestimation.
switch to this mode?
thank you.
nothing goes well with one clap.

matter.

2005-06-28T11:36:00.000+08:00

stupid me.

countless attempts to be away from this.
im back at it again.

all the theories
all the karmas
are they justified?

sometimes it's nice to have someone around.
i kinda lost that feeling.
maybe it's been too long.
too long that it's unbelieveable.

perfectly apt.

2005-06-22T02:52:00.000+08:00

Ain't it funny how some feelings you just can't deny (Oh...)
And you can't move on even though you try (Oh...)
Ain't it strange when you're feeling things you shouldn't feel
Oh, I wish this could be real
Ain't it funny how a moment could just change your life
And you don't want to face what's wrong or right
Ain't it strange how fate can play a part
in the story of your heart.

so much to say but somehow it's best to be kept with me.
i dont see much in saying too.

ah ha!

2005-06-19T23:23:00.000+08:00

tell me i can do it.
i know i can.
this aint the first time anyway.
stop that.
maybe i should work to kill time.
that would be good. =)
cheers.

working at color is rather fun.
i get to learn more.
the more the merrier.
i know a trick.
ask me.
but i need to perfect it first.

tell me more.

2005-06-10T15:57:00.000+08:00

if only i know what i want in life.
i can be more focused and know exactly what i want to do..
it aint easy sometimes.
im trying but somehow it doesn't seem to work.

i dont like grey lines.
it makes me think if i should say or do.
the consquences that come after.
it's dire.
maybe i shouldn't.
we'll see.

i think i drink too much.
i got to stop.

backpacking?
thailand, cambodia and vietnam..
thinks hard.
will be away for a month plus if i do..

work work work

2005-05-31T23:24:00.000+08:00

been busy with work.
that's all that's on my schedule.
but..
ZOO'S ON THIS THURS!
haha. it's been really long since i last went there.
those days in primary school.
going there to gain points just to get those badges.

more pictures.
think im really really bored. haha.

TADA!
'redang

that sub zero bar.

2005-05-27T01:29:00.000+08:00

wow wow wow.
it's been long..
so long that i din know that blogger has chinese words instead of our usual english language.
damn this is bad..
i have to guess which is which now.
k, not that my chinese is that bad also..
ahem..!

my comp is alive!
went to fix it..
n it's soo much faster now..
hahaha
yay!!
there's webcam too. grins.
it's quite fun. hahaha.
definitely will use it to the max.
to make my money worth..

no more tioman.
the school decides to cancel it..
so sad.. i need the tan but im not gettin it.
any other way to get dark?
im too fair.
aint good..
today went to eski 2.
gosh! it's really really cold to the max.
colder than the outlet that im at..
i almost froze to death in the cold room. hahaha.
at least my ears din fall off..
i wonder whose almost did..

the explosion

2005-05-17T23:48:00.000+08:00

It's going off…
time bomb..!
tt's my comp.
damn. tt's bad.

no more fever.
no more sore throat.
slight flu.
tt's the way, uh huh uh huh i like it. =)

nothing much happened lately.
not much tots on my mind.
well.. not that there's nothing.
been thinking..
i think i just contradict myself.
it's not the first.

i wonder how many people pen down how they really feel on their blogs.
it seems that almost everybody can have access to almost anybody's blog these days if they bother
1. to look up
2. to blog surf
3. to ask
4. to read for leisure
i find that the things that i blog is getting more vague.
but i still blog.
it's hilarious.

i wonder the big 'WHAT IF'
i guess it happens to everybody.
every crossroads,
every mistakes,
every success,
we always wonder, the big 'what if'..
what if i didn't choose this path..
what if i had done my best..
what if i wasn't this lazy..
it just goes on..
i dont like to be plagued by this sometimes but somehow,
it seems almost impossible to escape from it.
i need a way out.
out.

Guess what..
I'm heading to tioman soon..
To be a camp instructor.
Wow..
Sounds neat ain't it?
Though I don't know what I'm supposed to do at the moment.
Will find out soon..
Fun,
Sun,
And not forgetting,
I'm getting paid too. =D

redang pics

2005-04-29T23:34:00.000+08:00

the link to the great pics.
tada!

PART ONE
'redang

wat's that again?

2005-04-29T17:50:00.000+08:00

bananas in pajamas
are coming down the stairs.
bananas in pajamas
urm... what's next??? oops.
anyway!
banana boat is really fun!
whoooopssss
swoooossshhhh
splash

im back.
fitter,
darker,
and i hope, taller. damn.
it's a really wonderful break i must say.
sorted out alot of stuff on my mind.
im glad.
im good.

i never took that many bus trips before.
6 in total.
1 ferry.
beat that someone.
13 hours.
nonetheless, it's fun.
good food,
cheap drinks,
ktv,
clubbing,
fine sand,
ocean,
snorkelling,
-clownfish
-sea cucumber
-trumpet fish
-the list continues
company..
that's the way it is..
uh huh uh huh..

toss and turn like salads on the bowl

2005-04-25T01:34:00.000+08:00

im leaving again..
feels good..
i hope this trip will be good.

sleeping seems really tough lately...
i dont know why..
i dont like that feeling..
the feeling of having those nostalgic moments..
not too much of it please..
thank you.
according to clare, i was tossing and turning..
hmm.. it's weird since i dont recall doing much of that..
one word,
bye.

off to the little sunny island!
dont miss me.

a trip needed

2005-04-22T10:06:00.000+08:00

week after week i seem to be stuck at work..
the only thing that makes me look forward to is 'pay day'
ok, maybe this month is slightly better..
goin for short trips and giving myself some time to rest.
of course, to be away from the hustle and bustle of the little town..

last night seems really difficult to sleep.
i tot the days of having insonmia is over..
it's back..damn..
cause of that, i tot about alot of things.
things that i dont wish to think about.
it came to me rather fast as well.
unfortunately, there's nothing i could do..
i couldn't turn the time.
i couldn't stop the things from reocurring.
i guess another break would be appreciated.
that's why i need the rendang trip soon.

the unexpected..

2005-04-19T19:59:00.000+08:00

wonder what is on my mind..
wonder if i know what is the exact feeling..
aint it weird when i should be the one who should know better?
if only...
the complexity of one's mind..
the expected one comes along..
leaving me wondering if all these while i've been right..
right about everything..
right about what is goin on..
if only..
but somehow, it aint that bad as well..
there's always a better outcome i guess?
i'm counting down to that..
is it coming??
i'm still counting..
to the day when the disputes are finally over..
to the day i can gladly say,
IT'S OVER.
that difficult?
i wonder..
i can do this myself.
to the route that ends one day.

bintan's pics!!
dont i look good?
wink wink.

the rugby sevens..
the traditional haka..
i love it!
well, there goes the umbrella as well.

check that out

2005-04-13T21:53:00.000+08:00

the trip!
damn.. cant it get any better?
the sun, the fishes, the early nites.
wonder if the food there makes me shit better..
ponders hard.
3 of us,
busy with sun tanning oil.
only 1,
just one, with the sun block.
the days away from the busy schedule,
the days away from all the problems..
not escapism..
but just a break from it.
maybe we should go back again?
sounds nice?

what's coming up? stand up.

2005-03-29T01:59:00.000+08:00

drinking was fun that day.
cant get any better sometimes.
it's hilarious.
period.
doing things that a sane person wont do.
running from one side to other.
somehow it feels good.
beer and me dont go.
*hands up*
tt's me.
maybe running after drinking is good.
feel those blood circulation going inside.
sounds good.
feels good.
aint it good.

i've quit that thing.
what do u call it?
cigs.
holis coming.
bangkok soon.
tanning soon, in malaysia.
i need to be away from singapore.
to keep me on track again.
to feel all refreshed.
i need that.

what's there to ask.

2005-03-23T00:17:00.000+08:00

i wonder..
i continue to wonder..
there are so much questions to think bout.
unlimited, aint they?
so much things in life that go beyond the ability of us..
jaded.. is that how we want to feel.
is it possible to stop the feeling..
the feeling of wanting to feel less.
the feeling of gaining that little bit of happiness..
someone once told me..
at 20, u lived three quarter of ur life.
at 50, u lived three quarter of ur life.
aint it true?
we live the days as it go by..
not knowing what is goin to happen next.
the uncontrollable feeling is horrid..

4 of us sat at the curb.
feeling what we shouldnt be feeling..
cant we just allow it to vanish?
wouldn't it be better if we could control how to feel?
wishful thinking.
the complaints of all.
the lives of the people around us.
it's amazing how everybody feel the same.
is it the age?
or is it the way we choose the life to lead...
or simply we aren't just happy with what we have.
the possiblities to a single- question.
or maybe, being jaded.
or some, depressed.
then again, lousy?

something is lacking..
cant pinpoint..
searching..
still aint there..
high,
low,
left,
right.
aint there at all..
HAAAAAALLLLLLLTTTTT!

rugby sevens is here once again.
cool stuff.
female team is on this yr.
more drinks anyone?

spinning around.

2005-03-12T02:00:00.000+08:00

sometimes i wonder if it is too difficult to have what i want.
maybe it is.
i just hope i wont be much of a cynic.
no idea what is going on.

the fitness

2005-02-28T14:08:00.000+08:00

this wk let's call it,
the wk to aching.
or maybe,
the wk to ultra fitness.
had been exercising alot...
tell me about it!
especially coming from me.
well.. im not that bad actually.
not that ultimate person who just sits there and not do anything.
inviting all the fats to jiggle together.
catch that.
believe it or not,
walked from town to meyer road!
to think we were tired...
haha.
it took us 3 hours?
hey hey, not that we were rushing anywhere.
so dont think we took soo long to get back
just that we liked the speed we were at.
nice walk i would say. =)
check this out.

IT'S A CRAB!!

IT'S AN EEL!!

along NICOLL HIGHWAY!
i wondered where they came from.

anyway, rugby was fun as usual.
4 hours of fun.
4 hours of passing.
4 hours of perspirating.
now, it's a day of aching.

well, as always.
nothing much.
nothing exciting.
thinking alot as before.
i wonder where this is going.

there we go again

2005-02-22T23:10:00.000+08:00

that was fun.
i do i do.
it was really lame.
gee.. i guess that's what singapore's production is capable of.
ahem.. maybe it aint that bad after all.
had my birthday treat from avril too.
thanks! =)
dont worry. i wont forget when is urs.
grins.
guess what, wat's new?
we are always taking pic.
n now, here we go again! haha

ohhh. she introduced this gum.
not bad.
try it someday someone.
cigarette prices, can't they go any lower???
faints.
oh, guess wat?
was smoking with dad at kl zouk.
tt's classic.
was fun clubbing with him.
hmmmmmmmm.....
haltt...!!
maybe i should stop drinking beer.
i say many weird stuff too.
haha

the big 21

2005-02-20T02:27:00.000+08:00

for once in such a long time,
comp decides to behave.
i managed to do some blogging.
over the wks, it was great.
21st birthday, kl zouk, valentine, getting drunk, stuff that i shouldn't be doing, the forgetful me.
i wonder if that's my forte.
the forgetful me.
maybe i have to salute to that.

being 21 seems like there isn't much difference.
just that i've officially entered adulthood.
i know there's no way anyone believes that im 21 esp from the way i look.
sometimes i wonder if it's a good thing.
thinking bout the days when i finally enter the working world.
people always have this thing.
the first impression.
people who tend to look younger are given the doubts of doing well.
this isn't good.
alright, before i think of this,
i have to worry bout my results.
dear GOD, will i screw this again?
prays hard...

silly me.

2005-02-04T10:04:00.001+08:00

silly me.
yesterdae wanted to click on maye but i accidentally click on that someone in msn.
guess wat.
i said the word, hey.
i din realise it at first cause i had afew windows ongoin at that pt of time.
i was shocked when i realised i got the wrong person.
sigh.
times of the past came back.
it's as though it is hauntin me.
images.
quarrels.
the so called bitching that din occur.
everything.
this sucks.
i just dont get it. i never did bitch bout that someone. yet, the someone strongly think so and refuses to believe i din..
it's ironic especially when there was so much trust in the beginning.
dont know why their words weigh more when the someone spent more time with me in the past.
doesn't the someone knows me well enough to realise that?
would one bitch bout someone that they care alot for?
it's weird.
i never knew things will turn out so bad.
there are many things that i want to explain, to clarify.
but somehow, i guess there is no point in it.
the someone wants to make me seems as though i did something horrid.
fine. be it that way.
too worn out also to even care.
i dont hate that someone.
no pt in doing so as well.
just wish that someone all the best.

pondering away...

2005-01-31T01:13:00.000+08:00

sometimes, it only takes a person's word to get u thinking.
maybe, this time it did.
well, say when 3 people asked the same question.
'are u attached?'
it seems harmless yet at the same time, i wondered.
one and a half yrs is pretty long.
yes, it's true.
something is missing sometimes.
somehow, what can i do about it as well.
not that im in a hurry to find someone too.
guess, i just wonder..
but, it would be nice to have someone..
aint it?
den the next question.
is my standard too high?
ha. that's weird.
i really doubt it.
just that it aint no one..
knock knock.
ohh well. tt's how it is.
life aint that colorful for me.
uh huh uh huh. hahaha
it evolves around work n tuition.
alrite.
some leeway, chilling n club at times.
n that's that.

outing.

2005-01-29T04:06:00.000+08:00

zouk's been treating me well this wk.
it's nice.
period.
another plus pt,
my hair is growing faster than i've expected.
good.
that's wonderful.

the days.

2005-01-25T22:58:00.000+08:00

n now, i admit im slightly happier.
better than sat.
phew.
that haircut.
that...
maybe a pic or two will clear all doubts.
but help!
it's the worst haircut..
argh.
im known as the durian helper.
note,
given by my mum.
that shithead.

that's it. the first.

aint it slightly better?
lately,
nothing much as always.
well, except that finally i've started my driving lessons.
wide smile.
other than that,
it's plainly work n tuition.
yay. tt's my life.
the enthusiasm.ha.

21st birthday is coming.
totally clueless.
great. it's day 1 of chinese new yr.
how wonderful can it get.
i wonder.

the someone

2005-01-17T01:09:00.000+08:00

sometimes i wonder if my blog is mine.
n i really think the someone is being too much.
i hate the someone's guts.
the someone makes as if i was the bitch.
as though i owe that someone something.
so now im the one at fault out of the blue.
just fuck off.
just fuck off.
tt someone so make the pt of 'u can get lost now since i dont need ur help.'
what have i done wrong?
the bitching din not even begin.
but now,
i admit that someone's a bitch for once.
it wasn't even my fault n in the end, that someone makes it think it's mine.
for gawd sake,
grow up.

wat a day. wat a break.

2005-01-11T01:10:00.000+08:00

when it comes to accurancy of words.
it's clare that i have to salute to.
hmm, wonder if i should crown her or something.
oh well.
here's the story.
she was like
i hope ur book will drop onto the wet floor.
yea. it did. my book is dirty now.
next,
i hope u will fall.
ok, i din literally fall.
my jaw almost dropped..
due to some incident..

i just dont get it.
i think i will never get it..
someone tell me.
what's wrong.
is there something wrong with me?
yes.. i was like bochap.
maybe i should really be bochap n not pretending i am.
yes. that is the key to it.
3 wks is all it takes.
2 times already..

cough cough ahem now!

2005-01-10T01:05:00.000+08:00

cough cough cough ahem!
the process repeats.
yeah, that's the way it is.
maybe i should come up with a rhythm.
that sounds really good.

im working.
working at tanglin.
do drop by.
that would be nice.
*charms with my all time lovely smile.
haha
i hope it did work.

thinking stuff of the past,
makes me wonder if it is all worth the effort.
i wonder.

workplace.

2005-01-05T23:50:00.000+08:00

day 1.
man, the babies are just soooo adorable..
oohh man!
get to see soo many in a day.
the eyes!
they have blue, brown, u name it man.
but mostly are ang moh and japanese lil ones.
sooooooo cute.
this lil girl was simply enjoying her vanilla milkshake.
the way she does it..
it's unbelieveable!
step 1
she dips her whole hand into the glass
step 2
she looks at her hands
step 3
she sucks them!
man, she looks satisfied after that.
note: all without her mum's notice.

nydc, the place to be?

2005-01-04T21:50:00.000+08:00

it's a new yr yet i've invited many bugs into my life.
thanks to them, i'm ill now..
haha.
so much for a new head start..
oh well. then again, i think i've been staying up really late.
my bioclock is once again screwed up?

yesterdae was really fun.
din laugh soo much for a really long time.
it just bring back those memories in kc. =)
last nite met up with my seniors.
geez! they are like 22! muhahahaha.
oohh soo sad. grins.
there is this funny encounter.
my straw dropped on the table unknowingly.
i was like
'can i have another straw?'
it sounds really harmless.
but the waiter heard it as
'can i have ur no?'

nite out

2005-01-02T03:53:00.000+08:00

HAPPY NEW YR!
IT'S A NEW YR!
there goes 2004.
here comes 2005.
last yr loads of shit and stuff happened.
hopefully this yr wont be so bad.
my new yr's resolution.
______________________

1. chilling
2. lung damaging.
3. aching arms
4. caffeine.
5. carbohydrates
6. butt saviour.

let's call it the nite out with queen cleopatra and jae.

burpy burpy burp

2004-12-31T03:45:00.000+08:00

virgin's experience for clare..
she's drunk..
1. hair.
- it is important to pull her hair back cause it's long.
2. skrit.
- her skirt will be dirty if she doesn't hold it properly.
3. slippers.
- it will be stained.
4. legs.
- it is too long.
; only then, the puking process begins.
gosh.. she drank the most..
im shocked.
she even had my drink and angel's as well.
P.O.W.E.R.
this ends the part one.
there's more to it.
let's call it part two..
tomorrow..

2004 is almost gone before we know it.
yet, it's not as a fruitful yr i wanted it to be.
if only i know what is in stored for me.
tt sounds good.
sounds perfect.
new plan for 2005.

soemtimes i find that im being made used of.
i hate that feeling..
damn, maybe i shouldn't be soo nice.
it aint good.
in fact, it is to my disadvantage.

MUSIC OF THE NIGHT

2004-12-29T14:12:00.000+08:00

PHANTOM OF THE OPERA.
way good.
i love it.
downloaded all the songs..
wala!
puurfect. =)

merry merry christmas

2004-12-25T16:45:00.000+08:00

have yourself a wonderful christmas..
i wonder if that was what i got yesterday.
bummed into someone
town was really crowded and to think i could see that someone
somehow i wished i din.
if only.
i wouldn't mind if i din get that sort of treatment from that someone
seriously, it's all the time..
which i dont get it.
i should learn not to care.
esp for someone of such.
i can do better than that.
wisen up.

christmas was rather well spent.
with different groups of people throughout the day.
as always, plans are not kept on track.
it tends to jumble.
again, i think i kinda..

have yourself a wonderful christmas
i need something to spice it up..
life's pretty a bore.
i guess after one reaches a certain age,
many different questions are on one's mind.
but somehow it's not easy to deal with them..
maybe i should learn how to.
learn from various aspects.
yes, n that's what i will do.
L.E.A.R.N

howdy dude

2004-12-19T01:21:00.000+08:00

it's good to tell yourself what to do sometimes.
at least you will feel 'better' after that.
sylvia, tell urself, everything will be fine.
yes. it will be fine soon enough.
you are strong.. =)

clare n angel were like, hmmph u are really late today.
yes, 2 hours late apparently.
town is really crowded today.
loads of tourists.
avril n i are really broke.
budget outing you may call it.

kayaking course with efei tomorrow.
hope it will be fun.
do i bring the rain?
i wonder.

||fever, ella fitzgerald

wonder what's behind us. hmm..

dont we look young?! damn.. ah ha! she's 21.

i am a log

2004-12-16T19:09:00.000+08:00

aint it weird how you think drinking wont solve one's problem, yet at the same time, one still indulges oneself into it..
escapism, u call it?
somehow.. i agree.
yes, im guilty of it as well.
was drunk 3 times in my entire life.
yesterdae was the worst.

had loads, well, hell alot of drinks.
i was zoned out.
devil's to zouk to devil's again.
was nice to see my old frens. =)
always put a smile on my face.
somehow i wonder if things could go the way one wants.
i guess not.

jokes of the drunk joker.
1. fountain of the day.
2. the toilet is my bed, my home.
3. i like the cab's floor rather than the seats.
4. road is a better choice than cand's house.
courtesy to me being dead drunk.

i still hate the feeling of getting drunk.
contradicting it may sound,
but i still hate the feeling.

|| you're my inspiration, chicago

if only seems easy

2004-12-15T01:14:00.000+08:00

if only we have the power to read n know how people feel,
aint it good?
if only we could be more sensitive to the people around us.
aint it good?
if only we know how much we should care and bother,
aint it good?
a balance is what everybody wants.
isn't it difficult to attain?
pretty much to me.

went drinking today.
this is bad.
everybody seems to be smoking.
maybe my non smoking days seems really tough.
and it's coming to an end.

what's that!

2004-12-12T22:55:00.000+08:00

somehow, somehow, there's alot of thoughts running through my mind.
wonder if it's a good thing as well.
maybe not..
i think, i think, it's been too long.
5 months?
it's long..
could say it's the first time.
maybe i need some diversion..
nothing is here at all.
it's always back to this..
but i know i've never taken a step to look around.
hmm..
wonders.
questions.
it sucks when u know it's one side track.
yea, it does =)
slam bang wham..
it's still there.
great.
from one, to two, to three, to many..
counting is fun.
but not for me.

|| when you wish upon a star, louis armstrong

what's that in front of u

2004-12-09T21:56:00.000+08:00

yesterday was fun.
i was high.
n of course, it was scandalous as well.
damn. haha.
but it was still fun =)

felt kinda cranky cause i like someone yet i did something i shouldn't do.
but it's just impossible between us.
soo oh well i guess.
singlehood is not something that is a life time.
haha. i hope so man.

im red.
what m i ?
a lobster.
went tanning yesterdae.
played bridge.
im burnt.

efei n i almost got lost today.
tell me something new when we are out together.

take ur feet and run

2004-12-07T14:06:00.000+08:00

macs.
damn i think i need to eat less of such stuff.
it is not helping.
i think im spending too much on food.
haha.
yesterdae was just a classic example.
alright not all on food since everywhere i go was by cab yesterdae.
damn.
this is bad.
yes, i think i have successfully quit smoking.
it's been almost a wk.
sentosa or work.
damn, it's tough isn't it ?
work is like 10 hours.
should i ?
well.. we'll see.

tell me someone

2004-12-05T13:30:00.000+08:00

i mustn't let anyone affect me this bad.
i hate the way im feeling now.

would u be pissed if someone u kinda know insulted u for nothing?
k maybe not nothing.
something that he did was wrong n wanted to warn the one he is with?
the one, instead said things that was so unexpected.
so hurtful.
was it dumb to say?
next time, if ever i see ur guy dancing intimately with other girls, dont expect to hear from me.

i just say i hate the way it feels.
it's been too long.
somehow, i wish i could erase that part of me.
each time, u make me feel that part of me wasn't worth it at all.
i dont know..

and damn, i wasn't spiting u.
u said, 'fuck off bitch.'
i replied, 'fuck u xx'
this game seems forever.
n i hate it.
i seriously do.
only if i could hate u for real..
im drained.
n i hate to feel this way.
this sucks.
sucks totally.

wonder who will be in my life next.
it seems so bleak.
i dont know y also.
maybe i always like the wrong people.

get up

2004-12-05T01:02:00.000+08:00

im determined to quit smoking.
yes, n i think it's working. =D

im so awake.
gosh n i think it's bad.
yet to sleep at all except that 2 whole hours at candice's place?
i was sniffing and was kinda bad.
yah, plus im losing my voice as well
damn, i think i kinda passed it to junyi n she passed it to candice.
felt rather bad.
oops! haha

anyway,
i doubt i like anyone now.
maybe i do but it's more like knowing it's impossible that made me forget it.
would u say even if u know it's impossible?
guess, not for me.
i think it's better this way.
love r/s doesn't seem like my cup of tea.
or maybe i just suck at it? haha.
oh well.
crushing period was nice. =)

hippy hoppy who

2004-12-02T01:02:00.000+08:00

have u seen a guy that talks so much u wonder if he can talk with his mouth close?
i wonder.
have u seen a guy who thinks annoying someone is better than being a bore?
i wonder.
have u seen a guy who tries to be really intellectual?
i wonder.
right.
seems like i've seen one myself.
even if u scream 'shutup' at him, there is no effect.
ok not exactly the word shutup but more of,
sarcasm?

im tired.
yet to get my proper sleep.
think i should sleep rite now.
i'll be in time for rugby tomorrow. =)

high n dry

2004-11-30T01:49:00.000+08:00

it's been long.
it's weird how i blog less after exams.
the tot that it's over.
gosh.
it feels really good!
n yes, we are game of getting high next wk.
not drunk. haha.
thank you. =)

out in out?

2004-11-27T03:28:00.000+08:00

bak gu teh.
yum.
the smell of freedom just feels great aint it?
oh, do watch
TAXI =)

sings praise to the lord.

2004-11-17T19:52:00.000+08:00

OOOO LA LA!
yes, it's finally over. =)
im glad.
im good.

sometimes have you ever wonder y we are stuck in the situation that we are in?
or have you ever wonder it could be our own doing?
each time we are given the chance to choose.
do u take a longer or the shorter way?
or u just simply cant be bothered till it comes right smack at u.
only then, begins to digest.
chomp chomp chomp.
feels weird doesn't it?
too much to digest.

|| in the arms of an angel, sarah mclaughin

oh no!

2004-11-15T23:46:00.000+08:00

guess what.
this wk is the wk that determines whether i will make it or not.
it will make or fordoes me quite
going thru this whole process for a yr and it's comes down to this wk.
haha.
oh well. here it is.
maths and lit.
yup, timing will be right this time!
i've checked and done my homework.

||Moonlight sonata, Beethoven

what's next?

2004-11-13T23:22:00.000+08:00

im so sick and tired of this exam.
weirdly, it's worse than last yr.
damn, i think i might not do well.
somehow, i lost the momentum.
yah. it's weird to feel it in the mid of exam.
this sucks.
think im dead.
someone might want to bury me soon. haha.
nonetheless, im still looking forward to the days after my exams regardless of the results.
maybe i need to sit down and decide what im going to do after mt exams.
this is going nowhere.

i wonder if astrology is true.
was flipping thru this mag and i came across the page on astrology.
read my sign, 'aquarius'.
to my horror, it's true.
it din say something will happen in general but rather, it was quite specific.
and it happened!
something did happen a day or two ago and i only read it today.
scary!!
ahem, so will i do well?? haha

||vertical horizon, best i ever had

how we perceive.

2004-11-12T10:23:00.000+08:00

have you ever wonder why our paths are the way it is?
have you ever wonder who are the ones whom we can trust?
have you ever wonder if it's possible to be frens with someone yet you cant trust them?
what do we call them?
superficial friendship?
that sucks, aint it?
what's the pt of saying,'hey that's my fren' but in actual fact. you dont trust her.
is it possible not to trust the person based on what others say about that person?
would it be better to say it to the person if u are angry, disappointed with the person?
or is it better to say behind the person's back?
i opt for the first one.
everyone would be contented as long people whom they cherish believe them.
no one can ever please the world.
but sometimes, even people that they hold close to, doubts them.
i believe that's the worst thing that can ever happen to anyone.
everybody says things when they are angry.
but do they mean it?
ever consider at a different perspective why they say that?
ever try to understand the way they feel?
im trying.
i admit it's tough.
but im still trying.

how does it feel when u get accused?
bad feeling?
especially by someone whom u are closely aquainted with.
*ponders.
i believe it's hard to disgest that.
what about when you are upset?
when you pour our ur feelings,
do u call that bitching?
i really wonder how misunderstandings can churn out.
sometimes, i think i trust the wrong people.
too trusting perhaps?
besides that, im appalled by the people who can come up with a whole conversation that never happened.
it's amazing aint it?
*ponders again.

|| Everybody's changing, keane.

hello! are u in there?

2004-11-11T04:14:00.000+08:00

supper at 24h kopitiam.
we saw a guy carrying a plastic container filled with hot water and inside it, are two eggs.
that's the way how it is cooked.
interesting.
there's a sign that says SELF SERVICE.
no one wants to move even though everyone wants a drink.
in the end, kat had to get it.
later on,
stef came back with a plastic container filled with hot water and inside it, are two eggs.
same procedure.
auntie says '10 mins'
kaya w butter is next.
4 of us took the first bite and at the same time,
each gave the same disgusted look.
this kopitiam is just so amusing.
drinks are SELF SERVICE.
eggs are SELF SERVICE as well.
the TASTE of bread is JUST SO GOOD.

|| Just the way you are, billy joel

a change needed.

2004-11-10T22:32:00.000+08:00

K IM IN LOVE WITH........

i never understood a bad day start could affect a person so much.
maybe it's because i never did experience how it's like.
life has been such a breeze for me.
life aint that difficult for me even though there were ups and downs.
maybe the only one thing in life that got me really affected was last yr of mid may.
maybe im taking my life too easily.
getting retained, i wasn't this affected.
did badly for my A's because of econs..
yes, i was a little affected.
as a result,im doing it again.
for that cant be bothered attitude, that bo chapness,
i led 20 yrs of my life.
time flies. im 20.
coming 21 in say 3 mths time?
somehow i feel that i've not achieved anything.
i wanted to give up on my A's cause i find that i kinda screw my maths.
in the end, i decided against it.
i know it sounds kinda dumb.
but it's the first time that im really worried bout my exams.
maybe i know i cant afford to do so anymore.
anyway,
i felt horrid the whole of last nite n today.
and i know that wat's done is undone.
i simply cant concentrate.
tt bad feeling kept coming back.
im glad that it's gone now.
at least im feeling so much better after that good rest just now.
nd of course.
thanks clare. =)
im trying to piece my life together.
im trying to be a better person.
im trying to view things at a different perspective.
im trying to be more understanding.
im trying.

||If i fall over again, dan hill

yes. shoot me pls.

2004-11-09T09:14:00.000+08:00

OH MY GAWD!
OH MY GAWD!
OH MY GAWD!

*gasps*
hahaha. yes.
i cant get any blurer.
woke up at 730am today.
rushed like mad thinking that my exam is at 8!!
nearing the exam venue,
i took out my exam slip.
it says...
MATHS PAPER 1 09/11 1400
never before, maths paper is in the afternoon!
haha. *shakes head*
cant believe it myself. TSK!
yes. according to jol,
im a LOSER.
ahem! HAHA.
alright but she's forgiven.
since she'll be a lonely soul this wk.
now now, dont be sad =)
stef thinks im super blur.
cause was supposed to meet her after the paper.
made plans since last wk.
haha. yes. shoot me pls.
alright.. off to run some errands first.
hl, hope u get the stuff soon! =)
i bought another box. haha.

||crazy little thing called love,michael buble

hey mr crab!

2004-11-07T11:45:00.000+08:00

Sun Yat Fai Lok!

yes rachel. that's for you. =)

anyway,
weird enough.
my bio clock is restored.
would say it's due to the clubbing on fri.
aint that bad i would say =)
now im feelin tired at the right time!
good. that's really good.
finally it's back.

yesterday had chilli crab for dinner.
awesome!
gosh. it's HUGE!
stef! when's our seafood date?!
note the word 'date' stef.
it's gonna be a horrible one.
the last time u added something with it.
damn i cant remember. hahaha
was the one we went for the play.
ANYWAY,
i dont see SEAFOOD coming. hahaha.
I LOVE SEAFOOD!
basically i love chinese food.

k, im a happy person.
shant think so much about if i should say or not =)

|| all for one, all for love, bryan adams and rod steward.

oh look! what's that?

2004-11-04T15:44:00.000+08:00

can u believe it!?
it's D day!
alright.. so far it aint that bad.
hopefully im not wrong about it. =)
*prays hard*

received this registered article notification.
apparently mr postman came twice but i hear no doorbell.
TWICE.
anyway, i was like wow, wat's this? wondering how on earth i will get a registered article.
so i went down to the post office.
GUESS WAT IT SAYS.
'NOTIFICATION ON THE HUMAN ORGAN TRANSPLANT ACT'

Alright, xiaolongbao for lunch was good.
of course with the spicy dumplings
and sichuan style la mian.
yes, thanks mum.

off to bed.

|| fantasia in D minor, mozart.

im still kneeling.. yawns.

2004-11-01T01:34:00.000+08:00

im kneeling.
im still kneeling.
yes, when can i get up?!
haha.
yes stef,
i got it.
*nodding away*

yesterday before i went to bed,
i was thinking about chickens.
yah, chickens!
was thinking of a new way to cook it.
YUMMY!
thinking of trying it after my exams.
i wonder if it will be successful.
anyone in for a bite??
sounds really convincing huh.
muahhahaa!!

|| Brian Mcknight, One last cry.

look, what you have done.

2004-10-30T18:40:00.000+08:00

i wonder. and i wonder again..
whether the person who said,
if u go, i wont care about you.
sigh.
she's like my wonderful fren.
a fren who stands by me.
a fren who makes me smile.
a fren who makes me laugh.
a fren whom i confide in.
a fren who knows exactly how i feel inside.
somehow i dont know what to do.
going to uk then off to the states
if i have the extra cash.
maybe is not an option?
i dont know.
surprisingly, the previous day
before i was put in this spot,
someone asked what will i do.
now that im in this spot,
i cant think of an answer.

|| i can wait forever, air supply.

pop goes the qn

2004-10-29T15:04:00.000+08:00

now that i own a mic,
maybe i should consider a webcam too.
oh my. this is fun!
can save alot of typing. ha.
alright, audrey asked who is it that i like.
hha. man, i doubt i can run away from that question i guess?
but nah, i still dont know if i should say.
hush, the rest who know. =)
should i go to town today?
or stay home n do some decent work.
i still wanna eat xiaolongbao.
bummed into maye when i was out yesterday.
alright girl, drinking after exams!
haha. except that u have to wait.
burhurhur

|| please forgive me, rod steward.

pink and rectangle in shape.

2004-10-27T17:01:00.000+08:00

though my sis can be:
a sweetie, check.
a great girl, check.
a listener, check.
ok, basically a wonderful sis.
yes, love her to bits.
BUT! HHHHHAAAAAALLLLLTTTT!
gosh, she can be really irritatin!! haha.
was so mad at her today.
went down to transfer some money and i
realised my id is missing!
boy, was i frantic or what.
frankly speaking. haha i was.
i called her and she denied it.
'no, it's not with me.'
A's is like next wk.
i need my id and furthermore,
i made a replacement twice.
tell me if im unlucky.
first. my mum's bag was stolen.
second. my wallet was stolen.
i retracked my activities and i realised there's
no way for it to be missing! haha. damn.
OH WELL!
at least now it's back.
and yes, it was with my sis.

k, im bored.
i need to do something with my life.
it's too routined.
i need excitement.
SOMEONE OUT THERE?!

|| Are you lonesome tonight? Elvis Presley

countdown.. strike!

2004-10-26T13:18:00.000+08:00

speaking of which,
A's is like next wk?!
gosh.. watch out for that pace, dude!
hoping and praying that it will end soon..
another note would be to hope someoone is feeling much better now..

sorry you twit.
kinda fell asleep when i was like resting?!
saw ur msg only this morning..
alright but it was nice of u to accompany me the whole nite. =)
in the end it was me who fell asleep!!
*grumbles*

time to hit the sun soon!
time to lose weight as well!
ahem.. so u wont be laughing your heads off yesterday.
haha.
and of course my license. =)

||love me, colin raye.

tick tock

2004-10-25T05:40:00.000+08:00

dinner was horrible.
i wouldn't want to go back there again.
chinese and japanese food are still the best.
period.
nothing else can be any better.
others, it's either u get sick of it or
you find it too jelat.. (ahem, spelling)

it's 530 in the morning.
my bio clock is way screwed.
tiiiicccckkkkk tooooooccccckkk.

in for sauna?

2004-10-24T02:54:00.000+08:00

was i at some sauna place?
*looks around.
description:
was a really hot place.
was rather confined.
was perspiring due to the heat.
was dying of heatstroke.
hardly any ventilation.
that's wat we call SOS.
spectacular of steam.
beads of perspiration formed very soon after.

well. would say it's a bad place.
a place with bad memories.
met some people.
one of which i believe has something against me.
oh well. i cant change that cant i?
as long i know i din do anything.

we just quarrelled again.
when is the end?
will we quarrel again?
tell me someone.

hmm i wonder if there's anything wrong with this pic.
eversince i put it up on friendster,
i get weird msges.
FROM INDIANS!
haha.
aud n angie... think!!!

spare a thought pls, thank you.

2004-10-22T09:24:00.000+08:00

about the string of words said by you,
it's still lingering inside me.
sometimes i really wonder.
wonder how long it can last.
are we sure that was the last time?
are we sure...
i wonder again..
am i that sort of person?
y continue trying?
y bother working things out?
if you think of me that way,
y bother?
i know im not perfect.
but y that sort of answer from you?
it's all wrong..
just soo wrong...
maybe we shouldn't bother sometimes.
where is this heading to?
i want no quarrel.
is this what we call friendship?
tt was really hurting..
got all worried but that was the answer..
haven't you realised when i say something bout you, it is how i feel?
when i say i feel that you are making use of
me, ya, that was how i felt then.
i want no perfect answer from you
but just spare a thought bout me..
im disappointed.
i rather not know from the start.
that was something that could spark a quarrel
but i want quarrel no more...
may-be,
i've overreacted.
forget it...

|| kenny G - the wedding song ||

s-marty pants

2004-10-19T14:02:00.000+08:00

back from s mart.
yah, actually it's called all time favourite
parkway
i've decided.
not gonna say or do anything after my exams.
it's better to remain the way it is now.

im glad.
we are both glad.
happy to know that things are getting better =)
i wonder if im really better this way.
quarrels no more.
better frens somehow.
will it last?
someone, tell me.
let me know if u like it.

believe it or not,
tuition will be at 10pm this fri.
wat a way to make me stay home.

there are many things that people are chasing for.
love,
money,
happiness.
u name it,
there would be someone goin after it.
is it all necessary?
will it make us happier?
may-be,
only when it is achieved.
what about those who keep chasing but never
get anything in return?
what about those who put in their best
but never get to feel the way they wanted?
what about those who wait patiently..
there are many who chased and ended up feeling
in despair.
but i guess, what holds is the experience we
gained from it somehow...

BREAD AND CHEESE, ANYONE?

2004-10-17T03:22:00.000+08:00

im in need of sleep...
last nite i had half an hour of sleep.
after which i headed to town for breakfast.
gosh i felt so weird i must say.
in town like 8?! in the morning...
but kinda did some studying.
watched wimbledon.
rated, average.
angie kinda shocked me with her questions.
ha. din know what to say siah.
but nah, shant comment who is the person. =)
was talking to jun about her.
hmm... jun knows.
my frens know.
but not angie! haha. grins.
think im gettin really weak.
almost puked.
busride was rough.
head was spinning.
damn..
must be the lack of sleep.
it's 3 in the morning.
really bad eyebags.
HELP!
just put down the phone with jun.
she asked me an interesting question
bout cheese and bread..
right jun? ha.
sadly, uk doesn't have what u need.

kinda miss the person though..
hmmm..
oh well..
really wonder if i should tell her
since i did wat i needed to do.
-things are fine between us now.
no more quarrels.
im glad. =)

aint clubbing.
aren't i good or wat?!
hurhur

late night?

2004-10-13T18:46:00.000+08:00

small world aint it?
seems like everybody know each other.
freaky! ha.
seats at mac can get really uncomfortable
esp when u decide to stay there for the whole evening.
but i survived. =)

yet to see my id for months,
yet to see my mp3 for months as well.
thank you very much,
i want it back.
BUT!
she's being difficult.
how unfortunate to be living
under the same roof as her.
hmmph!
she's for sale.
anyone is in for it? ha.
yah, first chord that struck.
im evil.
MUHAHAHAHA!

yaya sisterhood

2004-10-11T13:14:00.000+08:00

alright..
yaya sisterhood.
given by my sis's frens.
whenever we go out, they will always
ask her how's our yaya sisterhood bonding.
so yesterday wasn't a surprise.
rach asked how's our yaya sisterhood bonding.
was pretty good.
went to cartel for dinner.
sat there and talked bout our problems.
for me, i was thinking if i should tell
the person that i like her.
sis thinks it's obvious that i like her
but i think the person dont know. ha.
but it's good for now i guess.
oblivious is good since i dont have
the habit to express how i feel about the person.
but when i do, it means alot.
maybe not now cause intending to settle
some stuff first.
otherwise no pt in saying.
more like being really unfair to her.
even though it only matters if she feels the same
but i guess before saying, it's better
not to have any baggage.
be it the person feels the same way or not.
oh well. guess we'll see how it goes..
after which, we headed to winebar for some
drinks with rach.
asked jo if she wanted to come but i figured
she has school today.
n that girl, tot my sis was driving! ha.
my sis.. hmm.. haha.
cause i told her transportation will be provided.
that's cause rach will pick her up
if she decides to come..
my sis.. tt's something interestin. =)

knock knock on those hard wood

2004-10-09T13:30:00.000+08:00

it's surprising how those wood is soo solid..
really thought it would give way somehow.
we aren't that light i think?
hmm.. 4 of us.. squashed on the upperdeck.
hahaha.. each had our own way of sleeping.
but shucks, my back is breaking.
yesterday was fun.
but it's a pity..
the stars cant be seen..
damn!
if not, it would have been puuurrrfect.
lying down looking at the stars...
that would be nice.
silence throughout wouldn't matter.
in fact would think that's the
best conversation instead.

sadly, killiney was so crowded.
it was, say, 930!
couldn't get a seat.
ended up at the next stall.
the food is pretty ok.
not that bad.
1 century egg porridge without pork
1 century egg porridge with pork

msn is ignoring me once again.
just cant seem to log on..
anyway snoozing off..